From Anna’s POV
Mangaka/Artist: A-KAAlways reblog. Most amazing and unique sketches.
Holy crap I realized a quarter of the way through what I was looking at and freaked
Audrey Hepburn photographed in the bar of Hôtel Raphael in Paris, c. 1956.
im writing this here because no one really pays attention to me here. i feel like i need to get this out before i do anything stupid.
i think i hit my all time low. i cant find anything positive. no money, cant pay my registration for school (which is in about a month), no inspiration to draw and feeling utterly worthless. ive wasted my whole summer staring at social media i hate, but its the only link to the outside world i have. every interview ive had has been terrible. i had an interview to be a tour guide, couldnt even be bothered to respond to my email the first time around. tech start ups dont want to hire me. i keep reading rejection emails and all it does is piss me off.
ive wasted my life away and just when i think its getting better, im once again kicked in the teeth. whats worse is that my inspiration to draw is gone. i dont want to do it anymore. i dont want to do anything anymore. i feel like im done, like i reached that point where its just a dead end in life. theres nothing to show for the things ive done. if i was to up and die right now, ill be remembered for less than a year, then… nothing.
im sad and tired. mostly tired. getting up takes way too much effort and i only do it because my dogs need to be fed and taken out. life has gotten absolutely meaningless. i have no one to share my most intimate thoughts with, things like music, art i really like or things happening in the world that could ultimately effect everyones way of life. i really only talk to 2 people on a somewhat daily basis that isnt family. then theres my family, which im not even going to begin to get into.
i really just want it all to end.
#vanellopevonschweets #wreckitralph #disney #disneyinfinity
#banette #pokemon colour pencil, from my sketchbook
#elsa #frozen #disney #infinity
#GameOfThrones #GoT #tyrion #tyrionlannister #chappellesshow #davechappelle